I am curious to see this new movie "Adam". When I saw the trailer I thought who ever wrote it must have been spying on me a few years ago. That's when I moved into the apartment complex on the second floor and Adam was on the third. Though he is incredibly smart this certain Adam has always lacked something in social and emotional intelligence which has at times made him quirky and cute, and at times frustrating, and difficult to get to do anything..kind of like the guy in the movie, judging from the trailer (this Adam has Aspergers). I dated this Adam seriously for over a year, and it has been a difficult on and off thing since, until recently when we broke off for good, but that was more due to his stubborn need for space and potentially other women he met at the health food store he works at (and where we originally met). I suppose health food stores breed emotionally retarded smartie-pants, and vice versa. I did have some crappy moments that have left my heart feeling covered in a thick residue of melancholic goo, at least for now, but I have to tell you the beginning was every bit and more as charming, cute, and romantic as whatever I will see when this move Adam is out in theaters on the 29th. I look forward to seeing if they can half as match the awkward and endearing miscommunications and brilliant interludes I experienced when I moved into Adam's "complex". Of course it probably ends on a high note before reality sets in, the way it should be.

There was an add on our very own xanga- how to keep him? How to keep his eye from wandering? how to make him want to be serious with you, and see you as girlfriend material, etcetera............Maybe I don't really get this, it doesn't work out long for me.........maybe it wasn't meant to in this last particular case, and maybe no one reads this!, but if you are a man, or experienced woman, and have any input, do just throw it my way because I am not going to be signing up for any advertising emails, where you read ten thousand ad-pages to find the one line of authentic tangible relationship advice....just give it to me already! ......rmm, thanks! -from me, clueless love :)

I can't be bothered by anyone. My ex doesn't love me anymore. Now I'm lonely and yet I can't deal with seeing people. I don't want to smile when I feel like shit. It's supposed to help? Even this comedy I'm watching just makes me feel more miserable. I know better, all the deaths, suffering, grievances, global warming, suicides bombings of the world...starvations, diseases, strokes, cancers, all the other heartbreaks, and adultery, and lives spent in prison....and I am being selfish and dumb. But I just want to sit in my cave of a room and sleep and sleep and sleep this wretched sickness in my heart away.........until too much time has passed to remember his face or his name or how much love sucks.